I just returned from my Japan trip yesterday.
Here’s a cliffnote version of what I did there:
Spent around 5 days without internet,
Spent a total of 8 days without my cellphone
Did not even spend a rough total amount of 5000 pesos while i was there (sad)
Took more than 1500 pictures during my tour.
Ogled at probably around 50 or so guys. (bishie’s galore)
Saw more than 15 hour’s worth of Japanese variety shows and Jdrama. (80% of which I surprisingly understood)
All in all a very good trip I believe. 
Did I forget I love Japan? except for the fact that most, if not everything there is expensive? =D
My exam is finally over! YEY! It feels really good to unwind and not to worry about anything right now. Yesterday I kept on thinking that I might fail my test. Luckily enough, I was able to pass it. And since I’m already on leave starting today, I finally had alot of free time on my hands. I figured I can probably waste it by watching piles and piles of videos that I’ve downloaded. I watched some streaming movies during the afternoon and got to watch a korean historical drama. The 1st movie that I saw was a Jmovie called Crow Zero. Basic gist of the story is that there are alot of rival gangs in this particular school and whoever defeats everyone is the strongest. It actually reminded me more of pacman because Genji (our hero) started going around defeating different classes. So once you defeat the class leader, they would start following you. So like pacman, you go around trying to increase your number by eating another faction. It was a typical Japanese movie. They added in the values of “pride” “honor” “being a man” “respect” kind of traits into the story. 2nd one that I’ve watch was a Kdrama about the dynasty of some country in korea. It reminded me more of a korean version of “The Boyleyn”. This one was more on “intrigue” “conspiracy” “duty” “loyalty”.
After that it got me thinking about governance. The 1st movie was about wanting to rule a school while the 2nd was about wanting to be king. And I figured, why would they want that position so much? I mean aside from being in a seat of power what propels them to have such a goal. Specially about the kdrama because being king doesn’t really have alot of benefits. I mean aside from dictating a nation what do you get out of it? pride? loyalty? sense of duty? Seems like those alone isnt worth the conspiracy. Yet when you think about history… people die not to mention kill for this. Haha I’m just rambling. The plotline of the stuff I watched today seems really similar that I just had to comment about it. Going to cut this entry short as I really want to know what happened next in my korean drama.
People are fickle individuals. I was worrying about the silliest thing yesterday and now I just found another thing to worry about. It’s strange really, because when you compare how menial your worries are compared to others… I doubt my worries can compete with 3/4 of the world out there. Yet it’s the only thing I can think about now. Maybe because we’re really not meant to “think” of something every minute of the day. Most oftentimes when I’m not thinking, there seems to be a song just lurking in my subconsciousness. Just keeps looping around my head until I decide to think about something else. In some way “imaginary” singing is a form of thought so I can’t really say that my brain’s pretty empty. This morning though, I woke up really early to take a training and while I was changing clothes to go the office, I experienced this rare occurrence of “absolute silence”. It was the type of silence that was so absolute that it was suffocating. It made me think that any noise would be better than this feeling of claustrophobia. Thankfully it only lasted for a few minutes before I was able to concentrate on strands of noise outside my window.
I pretty much lost the main focus of this entry but I figured it’s still good to write this down after a long time. Specially since something shocking happened last night and it would be good to have some sort of outlet. Sadly enough I can’t write what’s happening but it’s partly scary because it’s the first time that happened to me and it’s been sometime since I have to feel this uncertainty again about the future.
Could be a blessing, could be a curse… it’s too early to tell right now but with how the pendelum swings… it can easily be both. Presently, I just hope for the best.
1 of the things that I’m really loving right now. <3
1st is the perfume by Marc Jacob called daisy. I discovered this scent when I was vacationing in California. I went in Sephora and saw the top 10 smells for female perfume. Daisy I think is around the 2nd most popular brand right now. Ironically the smell grew on me because whenever we went in a mall and pass by a perfume store I would ask the sales lady to give me a scent paper with it. My one big regret though is that I bought the toilette version which is a significantly weaker version from an actual perfume. So in around 2 hours the smell would wear off. The bottle is transparent for the toilette while its black for the perfume. Maybe one of these days I would buy the perfume version. It’s around 80 dollars if I’m not mistaken and the price here should be fine.
Despite alot of things changing in life, you get to realize that some things you wish changed never does. Little stuff that you look back on… thinking like in 5 years or so “this” would probably be different.
10 years later, sadly never true. I find myself shocking stagnant for the past few years. Weather its due to really good puppy training or I just never mastered this value called “courage” everything is pretty much the same thing. Sure clothes may have been different, we’re working instead of studying, everyone’s got a new set of priorities… but the playing field is still the same. It’s the same old rules, it’s the same old team. Whatever happened to change? I guess in life whenever your given the chance to either fight or run! Everyone chooses to run. Why? Probably due to practicality or the fact that in life there are no happily ever after. Sure there are small bouts of happy when you finally reach the climax to a story but what happens next? It is virtually impossible to stay happily ever after because somewhere around that corner reality kicks in. That and the fact that every adult become unbending in their ways. It saddens me to believe but we all seem to be in an inevitable path to self destruction. The funny thing is that we didn’t even mean it to be that way, it just inevitably goes to that path. It’s just that we seem to be gathering alot of vices more quickly than we gather virtues.
Gonna stop now before this blog becomes a big splot of angst.
As we usher the new year 2009. It is of course the best time to do a New Year’s Resolution list.
These are the things that I’ll hopefully be able to do this year.
1. Go back to the gym. Specially since I probably gained wait from my trip to California and Macau, I definitely need to lose some weight. Trying to make this list more realistic. I’ll probably just aim for 1 quarter this 2009.
2. Try to honk my car only twice a day. This excluding the time I need to honk my car for someone to open our house gates.
3. Write more often with this blog.
4. Stay true to my 2009 motto. Yes, I started the new year with a motto. LOL. “Find your Bliss.” I have no idea where I got this phrase but I remember hearing it from a radio. If my memory serves me correctly I think it was either Pink or some Alternative Band that said this phrase.
5. Do some more photography and post my pictures. Ugh this means that I have to do post processing soon on the pictures that I currently have. This also means I’ll have to change the layout image of my blog as well.
6. Since I only jumped trice this year. One for luck, one for love and one for life. I might as well try to find those this year as well. Haha. Just that there isn’t really any certainty that I would find myself with any of these.
7. Drink at least 4 glasses of water everyday
8. Wear skirt and dresses for a total of 80 days.
I think that’s about it.
It just dawned to me that I would like to have the powers to understand all the languge in the world. Bilingual? What’s the term wherein you know more than 2 languages? I can’t seem to remember… multi-lingual? Imagine the many things I would be able to do if I just understand other languages such as Korean or Japanese. It would be amazing :D. I’m also trying to learn how to use re’nai and otome games. But from the instructions that I saw, it’s a bit complicated. It will take a bit of reading to learn how to use that program. How I wish they made those dating simulation games in english. It would be so interesting to play them. That and visual novels, I think those Japanese visual novels would have such nice storylines. It would make for a good reading.
Speaking of reading, The 3rd book of Eragon is out. “Brisingr” by Christopher Paolini is out last Saturday. By chance I was hanging out at Serendra’s Pageone. I grabbed myself a copy even though I haven’t even read the 2nd book “Eldest”. For the life of me, I can’t even remember what the 2nd book is all about. I’ll probably have to reread it just so I’ll know what’s happening in book 3. I still haven’t read Twilight as of now… and so far no “urges” to read it.
Nothing new with me currently. Bought alot of stuff this month, well actually not alot. But some items that were expensive so if you add them all up, it combines to quite an amount.
Going to try playing Warhammer this week as recommended by some of my friends. I need time to unwind.